Starting to feel like I should just give up. Give up and go elsewhere to work on my career.  New Zealand? should I give up on him. The love of my life doesn't even want me in his life.  his happier with out me.  

could be emotional nowadays. Close to Pms time.  Let's learnt to control it better.  I don't want to deal wth this or make others close to me deal with it.   Goodnight.  I'm grateful for those friends who have experience. And are able to tell me what to do and keep me calm.  goodnight world