I've had my down times. That's when I write here. But it's nice to have ups too! I'm not so upset anymore. I know I'll have my hard times but if I hold on I'll get through it :) keep fighting on! 

Can I just say. Thankyou for work! 

If I have learnt anything from loveshack it has to be. You can love a person and want them to come back. But don't out your life on hold.  If his made it clear you only bring misery and he doesn't want you anymore, you can keep hoping love is true and he didn't mean it. But don't put everything on hold. Work on yourself and what made you unhappy and lash out at him that way.  

Yep. You know what it is, your career. Applying for jobs! Get one you love and want. Just because he gave up on you does not mean you give up on yourself. Show him what you can do. 

On a positive note you have support and applying for jobs yay! 

Ok so I know I can't contact him BUT I badly wish I could show him these pictures.  

Oh mister look at this<a href="http://s1371.photobucket.com/albums/ag315/Pavika/?action=view&current=575b25196b2600732ad7042e2705d4e5_zpscd92a885.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://i1371.photobucket.com/albums/ag315/Pavika/575b25196b2600732ad7042e2705d4e5_zpscd92a885.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket Pictures, Images and Photos" /></a>

ITS THE POTATO! I feel better already. I've subconsciously shown you. Hope you can see it.  

AND  superman not on a bat mobil but a unicorn. Cause everyone expects him on a bat Mobil! 

 I can't wait till I can one day talk to you again and show you everything.   Wish I could tell you I love you.  Even till this day.  Even with everything you have called me and said to me. 

This is supposed to be MY diary. Yet I'm using it to write to you without actually writing to you. I'll never leave your side even when you've kicked me out of your life... Okay now your just being pathetic and all mushy.  

Thank god your feeling better today now let's keep hanging on! 2 week mark tommorow. You know he won't contact but keep looking forward. Chin up miss. As he would say. .. :( boy I miss him. 

I wonder if his killed my herb babies yet.... 

Yeah dude this is your problem. Look at your posts. Your soooo a.d.d.  

Another night without him but you can sleep and not think for a whole 8 hours.  Give yourself a little break.  Read your books. You go through them so fast but takes your mind right out of reality. 

Chao. Till tomorrow!