I hope to keep myself like this.  Try to sustain this feeling.  Patience is a virtue.  Getting tummy pains now. Monthlies are due.  

I don't think he hates me. I know he loves me. I do. I really do. I hope he misses me as much as I miss him :( hurting so much still. But I'm strong. 

Want to get my bookcase so bad.  Get my room together and maybe things will feel better.  Hang in there.  You can do it.  

You've contacted kelly. Maybe she will have soemthing for you.  Stay positive.  :) it will be your time soon. 

I'm thankful for friends. No matter what they are still there even when they need to go sometimes. 

Wish I could show you this mister.  This is what I wish for me and you in the future.  Your cute drooley face and our little jelly bean.  Plus peanut :) if I could wake up to that every morning. I'll be satisfied and rich for the rest of my life.  I don't need money.